Let's go back...back to the beginning

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^^photos :)

Review:

Morgantown, WV.

I couldn't have created a better weekend than this one. We drove a little over halfway Thursday night and stayed in a small, old "Friday the 13th" style town. We ended up leaving the hotel to go find some food and drinks and we somehow crossed the state border 4 times. We drove into West Virginia, found our way back to Ohio, got lost and ended up back in West Virginia, only to turn around in a BK parking lot to get back in Ohio. I don't think I've ever laughed so hard haha.

"Over the cliff and through the woods..." rofl, only 3 others will understand.

The next day we drove on into Morgantown. Of course we FREAKED OUT because it took us through Pennsylvania to get there haha. We went Ohio to West Virginia to Pennsylvania back to West Virginia. Twas HILARIOUS! We drove to the campus and got lost [rofl] so we decided to go to our hotel instead. NICE FRIGGEN PLACE, wow. Then we went back to the venue. When we arrived the guys all got out to walk in to the venue. A few minutes later David came back out and was helping unload equipment. It was awesome to see him helping everyone unload his stuff. After the guys left we went inside to hold our spots. The university was SOOOO nice and the people there were as well. We made friends with everyone around us in line and so whenever anyone wanted to leave to walk around or eat we were guaranteed our spot, which was very nice.

I'd like to break really quickly to say that David has some of the NICEST fans. We talked to everyone around us in line, everyone around us at the show, then everyone around us after the show. I met some great women that are gonna be a blast in VB! I can't believe how many people are going, it'll be epic! Anywho, these fans are awesome. Everyone we came in contact with was a blast :)

So after waiting for 7 hours they let us inside!! Fast foward through all the hoopla and its time for Ryan. Let me just start by saying I love this man. After hanging out with him and his band in Portsmouth I just can't get enough of his personality. He is the most perverted, fun, and sweet guy EVER. A lot of women would call that perfect since his looks just add more to the package. He blew me away again! I made it a point to download as many songs of his as I could before so I could sing along with him at the show. I hope he noticed the effort ;)

Then David came out :) [ofc] Where do I even begin? He was in an AWESOME mood, in fact everyone was, including Ryan. Joey was ALL over the stage, Andy came over and sang in the middle of the stage with Neal, David gave all 4 guys a hug, Neal, Andy, and Joey all played guitar in a circle together, Neal played the guitar behind his back, David and Neal both stood on the speakers to play guitar, David made Neal play 2 small solos then they turned right around and had a small competition :) TWAS EPIC. Natalie made a sign that said "I'm a teacher and I'm hot for you" and he totally read it out loud. We could see the set list from where we were and out of the blue David goes, "Well I know I have at least 1 teacher here so" AND THEY PLAYED HOT FOR TEACHER BECAUSE OF NAT'S SIGN! We were all ecstatic and he smiled at her during the song when she held the sign back up. By the way, that was the sexiest performance I've EVER seen in my life *fans self*. He also sang Straight Ahead which was NOT on the set list. I was elated because Nat went to hear H4T and I went to hear SA and he those were the 2 songs he played that weren't on the set list. It was seriously our night!

After the show we all went out by the bus and there were soooooooooo many people that I was 100% sure we weren't gonna get lucky. I no sooner got the words out of my mouth and here comes Kyle and Andy. We were standing on the top of a hill and I was like "They're not gonna climb up here to see us" and Nat goes, "That's funny you say that because here comes Kyle!" ROFL. We briefly talked to them, Kyle more than anything because Andy was making sure he saw as many fans as possible. We gave them their gift we bought :) which seemed to please them. Joey was excited when he came over and we told him about it haha, he's always so sweet. Then...the moment I waited for in Valpo and Portsmouth AND DID NOT GET...David walks over. We got him a present and the only bag I had was a Victoria's Secret bag [haha] so I put his gifts in there. HIS FACE WAS PRICELESS WHEN I GAVE IT TO HIM. I was like "I swear it's not what you think it is" and he goes, "Mhhmmm" and smiled. Then I said, "Can I please have a hug?" and he goes, "Well absolutely!" So we hugged and he ran his hand up and down my back :) then when we pulled apart I said, "Seriously, best show yet" and he WINKED AT ME. I don't remember what he said to me at that point because all thought immediately fled from my brain.

I love that man. He went through and shook hands/hugged/signed autographs for EVERYONE OUTSIDE. I'll never understand how one human can be so kind, grateful, and amazing with so many strangers. He's seriously an angel and I respect him beyond belief.We also had a gift for Ryan...an inside joke from the previous weekend...so we get his attention and he comes over. It was epic. Ryan personally asked us not to post vids/pics nor talk about the conversation we had. I love him, can I say that enough? He gained at least 5 new fans between my friends and I and I absolutely cannot wait to see him again. He gave us a personal invite last weekend to a show but unfortunately we cannot go :( I said, "You'll do great and it'll be awesome" and he goes, "It'd be awesome if you guys were there though" :( don't break my heart Ryan! Andy walked up while we were with Ryan hahaha, their interaction was wayyyyy too funny.

Neal was also out, I didn't personally speak with him but as a group we all listened to him tell stories. His dad was there for the show and so he was in an awesome mood. David, Ryan, Kyle, and Andy all said this was the best show to date. And it was. Trust me.

Perfect almost seems pointless...there are no words in the dictionary that would describe this weekend. It was the most EPIC ending to an amazing tour marathon. I can't wait to see everyone again in May! Until then...

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My life be like oooh ahhh

Incompatible, it don't matter though

'Cause someone's bound to hear my cry

Speak out if you do

You're not easy to find

Is it possible, Mr. Loveable

Is already in my life?

Right in front of me

Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me why I'm on my own

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end

How do I find the perfect fit

There's enough for everyone

But I'm still waiting in line

Most relationships seem so transitory

They're all good but not the permanent one

I love those lyrics...So we had to do a project in my Business class and since I have nothing better to talk about I figured I'd post what it said. It was titled, "Your Life Thus Far."

The Early Years

• Life for this small town girl began on a snowy October day in 1989. My family has always joked that I insist on making an entrance and my birth was no exception. My mom went into the hospital wearing shorts and a tank top but came home wearing long johns and knee high boots. Life was easy in the beginning. My grandma retired from her job at WPAFB and stayed home with me to teach me the way of the world. By the time I was nine months old I was speaking in paragraphs and running around the house. When I was 18 months old God had a different plan for my life. Instead of advancing, I was held back by Leukemia. I spent holiday after holiday, morning, noon, and night at Children's Hospital. Months and hard decisions later I was declared cancer free. After getting through that obstacle of life my parents enrolled me in school at age four. I attended a once a week class at a local church. Not that we specifically learned anything per se, but I later found out when I saw some of my best friends being held back in elementary school that this little class benefited me in the end.

School Years

• I loved school all the way up until fourth grade. My favorite classes were art and music and to this day, those are the two main subjects I'm interested in. Third grade quickly became the best year in school for me. This was the year I found my favorite teacher and this was the year I excelled. I was in the top of my class and brought home straight A after straight A. When I reached fourth grade, everything changed. I had an evil [and I mean EVIL] science teacher. Everybody I knew was petrified of her and two years after we left her class, she was fired for that exact reason. From that point on I was scared of school. I was scared to meet new teachers in fear of them being like her. I cried my way out of school and often faked sickness just to stay home. This continued through junior high and I was continuously punished for my failing grades. When I reached high school it all turned back around. I LOVED Freshman year! I began picking my grades back up and life became a little easier not only at school but also at home. Four fast years later I find myself sitting in college typing this. It's crazy to think that in a short paragraph I can sum up my years in school because even though it felt like it flew, looking back I realize how long it actually took me to reach this point in my life. I'm grateful for every lesson I've learned in and out of the classroom.

My Family

• My mother's family originates from Germany. My grandpa's family migrated here many years ago. My grandpa was born in this town and has lived here his entire life. My grandma is originally from Kentucky and moved here when she was around five years old. My grandma, aunt, mother, and I are all alumni from the same high school :) My dad's side of the family has a stronger background. My pappy was full blood Cherokee Indian and my nana is from Plymouth, England. They met when my pappy was stationed in England back during WWII. My dad has two younger brothers and a younger sister. Only one of his siblings still lives in Ohio. His youngest brother moved to Tennessee over 30 years ago and his baby sister got married and moved to Michigan.

My Life Today

• Life now is a lot different than life then. I've grown more in the past two years than a lot of people grow in an entire lifetime. I am thankful for every person that has walked in and out of my life. I've seen the good, the bad, and the ugly. I've faced my share of problems and I've at times created my own happiness. I feel more secure with my decisions now than I have in the past. I remember being in high school and not knowing where I wanted my life to go and being scared that I might not know until it was too late. I realize now that it's never too late to live your dreams. Life is so valuable and surviving cancer has opened my eyes to living outside of the box. Everyone is given one chance to live but very few are given two lives. I was given that second chance and I don't plan on wasting it. I know God kept me around for a reason and I plan on fulfilling that purpose. I try to dedicate my time to others. I feel that if I can help someone else then I'm actually helping myself in the end. There's something about changing other people's lives that is much greater than you and me. If I can make everyone I meet a little happier then I've succeeded my goal.

My Future

• There is a lot in store for the future, not only my personal future but the world's as well. I plan on graduating from college with my Associate's in Travel and Tourism. I then plan on moving to New York City and becoming a travel writer for a travel magazine. Eventually down the road I would like to become an editor or manager of my own company. There are a lot of places I've been and there's a lot of places these two feet haven't touched. If I can gurantee you of anything it is that the world is yours, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise, you CAN do anything you want in life. If you want something bad enough it'll happen, you just have to work at it. The Mona Lisa wasn't painted in an hour and Rome wasn't built in a day. If you can dream it, you can achieve it!

Nikki made this, I take ZERO credit, but it's INCREDIBLE!

I'll be seeing this man in TWO days:

Father, Father, Father help us

[You can't receive help if you are not willing to accept it]

Ok so the more I think about it, the more I realize I need a Top 10 list of places I want to go. Not the order I plan on going them in, but definitely the order of the ones I'd love to visit the most! Woo, do you have a Top 10 list? What's it a Top 10 of?

1- Venice...I HAVE to take a gondola ride. Plus I need me a piece of pizza and tiramisu at a corner cafe!

2- Paris...the most romantic city in the world. Wham bam thank ya ma'am GLAM! I already love it and I haven't even been.

3- London and Plymouth...want to be able to actually tour next time I'm in London, plus I have family in Plymouth that I'd love to visit! Not forgetting Stonehenge, oh my, how awesome?!

4- Ireland...no specific area, I just think the land is breathtaking and I definitely need a beer from an Irish pub ;) oh and I want to kiss the Blarney Stone!

5- Cape Town...I've seen pictures and I need to see the real thing!

6- Kenya...I need a safari tour and a hot air balloon ride through the wilderness :)

7- US Virgin Islands...I hear some of the nicest people live there plus have you seen this place? Holy fock!

8- Alaska...I want to do a cruise through the "uninhabited" and also am planning on doing a train ride! I might have to go to Alaska twice haha

9- Canada...primarily Montreal and Niagra Falls. CT lives in Montreal and the falls are 10x better on the Canadian side

10- Egypt...I HAVE TO SEE THE PYRAMIDS! HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO!

I'd love to eventually be able to go to the Holy Land, but only when it's safe. Which it isn't now and hasn't been for quite some time. #11 is Australia, hands down, I'm just unsure where at specifically and I need to make sure I'll be able to fly for over 24 hours straight. There are SO many places though...10 is not even enough...if I could, I'd post my top 100.

If you don't dream big then what's the use in dreaming?
If you don't have faith then there's nothing worth believing.
It takes wild hope to make the stars worth reaching for...
So reach out for something more :)

Faith. Hope. Love. The greatest is love.
xoxo

Truth be told I miss you

Truth be told, I'm lieing
When you see my face I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way I hope it gives you hell
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That song is so smart ass. I love it, just like me!

Hello blog and blog readers, has been a little bit hasn't it? And what better day to write other than Mr. Justin Timberlake's 28th birthday! Just so he knows, he isn't allowed to turn 28. I remember when he was 19!! Now I'm 19...go back to being 19 Justin :) that way I can say I caught up haha. I still love him even though he's never topic of discussion anymore. Once a fan always a fan...and he's just a sensational human being aside from being a genius in the musical industry. There always will be a place in my heart for Mr. Timberlake <33

On to other things...this has been a whirlwind of a month. In fact, so much that I can't believe it didn't go faster than it did.

I'm going to 4 David Cook shows. Something is wrong with me. I know this mom, so thank you :) haha. I'm more excited for 2 of them though because I have met some absolutely wonderful women online that I'm finally going to get to meet in person. I'm elated!!!

I've talked on the phone more in the past 2 weeks than I have in my entire life combined. Cara has seriously become a best friend, and we haven't even met. I've been talking to her for at least 8 months on the David forums and she has become more than a fellow fan, she has become someone who I can turn to and someone who listens to me and agrees with me! I talked to her for 4 hours on the phone the other night...do you know how long it's been since that's happened? Last Sunday I talked to her on messenger ALL DAY.

Sometimes you just need a stranger to walk into your life and let you know its all going to be alright. Everything works out in the end.

Tami and Carla are amazing as well. Tami is just as crazy as I am and I love laughing at our crazy made up antics that could put us in jail if we actually attempted them. She's a breath of fresh air in my boring day. On top of it all she's 34! She treats me like a grown up and for this I'll forever be grateful.

Carla as well. She's a mother of 3 kids, and she just recently told me she's old enough to be my mom. I don't believe her...she can't be 37!! She's so much fun to talk to and her kids and husband are great, I hope she knows this ;)

I've been told more in the past week that I HAVE TO BE older than 19 than I've ever been told. I appreciate people who appreciate and understand my mature nature. I love being able to hold myself in adult situations. It's nice to know that my advice is important to 2 women in their 30's.

Is it May yet? *sigh*

So school is great...I'm not a big fan of having to go 4 days a week but at the same time I love all my classes, professors, and classmates. I feel like this is definitely going to work out for me. This career has never felt more right than it does at the moment and NYC has never sounded like a better plan that it currently is.

I feel like so much has happened since last time. I don't even know what you know anymore blog :( I've decided to be a travel writer for a travel magazine. When I started school I just knew that I wanted to be in the industry. Everyone always asked me, "So you want to be a travel agent?" And my answer, "Well, I don't know really."

It took a lot of convincing and soul searching to decide what I wanted to do. It amazes me how things just fall into your lap. Oh wait...that's called fate...back when I decided to move to NYC I couldn't explain myself I just always said, "I need to. I feel compelled to. I was enlightened." Well after a few talks with my family and they agreed with my plan, I decided to be a travel writer. Then one of the patients at work came in and we got to talking. Turns out she lived in NYC for 42 years...she told me anything and everything I need to know about NY [a lot of work didn't get done that day, oops]. Next time she came in we started talking about school and careers and I told her what I wanted to do...what do you know? Her best friend that she roomed with in NYC is a freaking travel writer for a travel magazine. ARE YOU SERIOUS? That right there is proof of fate and God working his way into your every day life.

That's not all...when I went to see David last month in Columbus I ended up meeting a girl from Orlando there named Kelly. She's absolutely hilarious, just thought I would put that out there and I also enjoy talking to her beyond belief. Anyhow, we're sitting at this bar and we're going around the table talking about work and school and all this stuff and she starts saying places she's been to. I go, "Are you in the travel industry?" She says, "Yes, I'm a travel writer. I'm editor of a travel magazine in Orlando."

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?! I almost died...things like this scare me...wow.

I tell her that that's actually the exact career I want and so she gives me her business card and tells me if I need any help to contact her.

I can't believe it. Within 2 months my entire reasoning behind NYC and my career choice has been explained to me. Is it normal for this to just happen to average joes and girls next door like myself?

To top it all of Beth and I have agreed on being roomates in NY. I've known her since 1st grade and I probably hang out with her more than anyone else...it just makes sense. We're out of our minds though...we went and got actual paint samples LMAO also, we've decided on decorations for EVERY room of our apartment. Most of the things are at Target...some at Wal-Mart. I mean seriously...haha. Oh and we also have 3 options of apartments. I don't want to really say anything about them because as soon as you talk about good things, they fall apart. Hmmph. I'm stoked...I've totally turned her into a David fan, too hahahaha. I have a bad effect on people ;)

Well..I've already written too much. January started off on a nervous note but now it's all coming together. 2009 is going to be great. If I can help it, it'll be just as good as 2008...minus the Europe part :( I've been reminicing more and more about my Europe trip and I realize at the moment how much I sincerely miss it. The most perfect 7 days of my life. Take me back...!

Faith. Hope. Love.

Love endures all...

xoxo

All good things must come to an end

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Moments so dear
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure
Measure A Year?

In Daylights
In Sunsets
In Midnights
In Cups Of Coffee
In Inches
In Miles
In Laughter
In Strife

In - Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure
A Year In The Life?

How About Love?
How About Love?
How About Love?
Measure In Love

Seasons of Love.
Seasons of Love.

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Journeys To Plan

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure The Life
Of A Woman Or A Man

In Truth That She Learned
Or In Times That He Cried
In Bridges He Burned
Or The Way That She Died

It's Time Now - To Sing Out
Though The Story Never Ends
Let's Celebrate
Remember A Year In The Life Of Friends

Oh you got to you got to remember the love,
You know that love is a gift from up above
Share love, give love, spread love
Measure, measure your life in love.

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So here I sit at the closing of another year. A year that topped last year and a year above all years I've lived thus far. What a fulfilling ride it has been. The ups, the downs, and the crazy turns along the way. If I could re-live a year, 2008 would be it. I'd replay it over and over until I became absolutely sick of it. But how do you become sick of a year that almost reached perfection? With its downs came its even better ups. One door closed and a window opened. This year has taught me the most I've ever known.

I've learned that sometimes not everyone is as innocent as they seem.
I've learned that boys come and go but friends last forever.
I've learned that sometimes people make decisions on a whim to, in some form, prove themselves to the world.
I've learned that time is precious and what isn't enjoyed today, is gone tomorrow.
I've learned what its like to lose someone and not be able to say goodbye.
I've learned that goodbye isn't always the end.
I've learned that no matter how different we all are, each of us is still human.
I've learned that every culture brings something unique to the world.
I've learned how easily negativity is spread.
I've learned the feeling of truly helping someone selflessly.
I've learned how some people will just never be pleased.
I've learned what it's like to end a chapter of your life and start a new one.
I've learned how scary it is out there.
I've learned that lonlieness is only as lonely as you make it.
I've learned everyone is just looking for a friend.
I've learned that fate has a funny way of working itself out.
I've learned that FINALLY America has seen the light.
I've learned that thankfully a change is coming.
I've learned not to take myself too serious.
I've learned how to make work formal and fun.
Above all, I've learned that life is about the moments.

The moments that take your breath away.

The day you start a new job.
The day you fall for the new guy at work.
The day your best friend loses their mother.
The day you graduate.
The day you say goodbye to your best friends.
The day you make new ones.
The day you bridge the gap between those you care about.
The day you travel the world.
The day you swore you met the man of your dreams.
The day you weren't there to see your sister one more time.
The day you finally saw the family you've missed.
The day you fear change.
The day you conquer that fear.
The day you realize that growing up is taken one step at a time.
The day you help your best friend through a pregnancy.
The day you lose recognition of your grandfather.
The day you'll always remember as a stepstone in history.

2008 will always hold a special meaning in my heart. It was the year of change.

I changed.
The people around me changed.
Even America changed.

2008-
I graduated.
Bought a new car.
Raised $5000 for charity.
Traveled across the world.
Became closer than ever with all my best friends.
Started college.
Hell, made it through my first quarter with a better GPA than high school!
Met David Cook four times :)
Voted for a woman to be president.
Voted for an African American as well.
Then that man won and will forever change history.
And in 2008 I managed to remain happy through all the bullshit.

Christmas sealed the deal for me, it completed my year. The year of tears and cheers! It was only at Christmas that I realized the happiness of it all. Christmas Eve was spent with my grandpa in the nursing home. Christmas Day was spent at my Nana's. I got to speak to my cousin Wendy who lives in FL and we heard from my Aunt who is atm in Arizona.

No matter where you are, family is always in your heart. It's not about how Christmas LOOKS, it's about how Christmas FEELS. It's just too bad that feeling can't be felt year round.

Sometimes fate shows its face in the craziest of times. It throws you a curve and makes you stop and think. Reflect and realize. Sometimes fate is what brings us together and sometimes it's fate that tears us apart.

2009 holds no promises like 2008 did. I was ready for 2008, I knew what to expect. I'm not ready for 2009 and I don't know what to expect. Will it be better than 2008? Will dreams come true?

Sometimes...you just know.
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My year in pictures. Most recent to oldest:

Life ain't always beautiful

It has been a while, no? Yes.

Thanksgiving was eventful...

I saw 4 Christmases Black Friday which was hysterical. I love love love Vince Vaughn.

1 week from today is the David Cook show in Columbus. I'm on the edge of my seat with excitement.

We moved offices at work and I am incredibly in love with the new office. IT'S PERFECTION.

Um, went shopping and to Starbucks with Ash and Bethie tonight...twas a much needed intervention. And here's where we get to the depressing part. I told you all in the very beginning that I'd be honest with you and here it comes, head on. Miss Happy Go Lucky isn't so much these days.

My grandpa came thisclose [if not closer] to dieing on Thanksgiving. Now he's....

...well now we're moving foward and taking each day in strides. They pretty much told us they found traces of alzheimers...

I think we already knew that, just hearing it from a medical perspective kind of slapped us in the face.

And they bascially told my grandma she's never going to be able to take him home again. They've been married for 53 years and now he can't go back home.

We all realized that as well, but once again we got slapped in the face with honesty.

I don't know why I keep saying "they basically told us" "they pretty much said"

No in all actuality...they told us, they said it. That's just the denial slowly creeping out.

Grandpa today is not grandpa 2 years ago...or even 1 year ago for that matter. One of the strongest men I knew has now become the weakest. My pappy, grandpa, and dad are the only men in my life I consider amongst the strongest.

It's hard to watch a man who never gave up on ANYTHING...giving up on life. I was 3 years old when he promised me he'd live to be 100. My nana used to tease back and say she'd live to be 101...

Well my grandpa is 79 and will be 80 next September. If he goes now he'll owe me 20 years.

Selfish...I'm being selfish. This is what he needs. He just needs to go to the nursing home and just be. Let it be, right? God knows what he's doing and I trust that. I have faith in knowing that.

It's just going to get harder...and harder...and harder with each passing day. I'm losing hope with the only man who has ever hoped the best life has to offer for me.

These are David's lyrics about his brother battling a brain tumor, but every time I hear it I think of my grandpa, so I'm going to break down the song so you see how it relates.

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you’ll never see me cry
[I only remember my grandpa crying a handful of times my entire life but here recently it seems it's all he does]
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won’t go away today
[He promised me 100 years damn it]

Will you think that you’re all alone
When no one’s there to hold your hand?
[You're never alone grandpa, we're always in your heart]
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I’m permanent
[I'm always going to be your only granddaughter, nothing can change that]

I know he’s living in hell every single day
And so I ask, oh God, is there some way for me to take his place
And when they say, it’s all touch and go, I wish I could make it go away
[God please make it go away...at least make it easier]

But still you say
Will you think that you’re all alone when no one’s there to hold your hand?
[I can see in your eyes that you feel like we've given up, but just know that we haven't]
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I’m permanent
I’m permanent
[We're permanent...we're your family]

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you’ll never see me cry
[Please don't cry anymore grandpa, this is how it's meant to be]

I love you, forever and always:

Caution: Handle with care

You say you got to go and find yourself, you say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away, I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me, I will wait for you

So I let you go I set you free, and when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time I won't go anywhere, I picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them, I'll be here for you

I'll let you go, I'll set your free and when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need, I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there, I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you, it's something you have to do
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Good week/bad week haha.

Bad week because: I caught the flu :( actually called in sick at work. First time in 11 months! During class Tuesday morning I got extremely sick to my stomach and broke out in a sweat. Then I went to the mall with Ash later that night and barely got through it haha. I was thisclose to passing out in Macy's.


I slept alllllllllllllllll day Wednesday. Ok, not all day since I watched Sister Sister, Sabrina, and Full House lmao! Yeahhhhh. Grandma brought me over some sick goodies since I'm a big baby when I'm sick.

Today I had to got to school for ONE class! I had a damn math test and since Tuesday is the end of Fall Qtr I would have no time to make it up, therefore, I sucked it up and went in. Ray was like, "thanks for bringing in your germs, too!" haha whatever, I'm not failing. After class I went to grandma's :) again, with the big baby thing ;)

Butttttt I work tomorrow and Saturday so I have to suck my lip back in, grin, and bare it. OSU/MICHIGAN GAME IS SATURDAY!!!!!!! The game of all games <333 go Bucks!!!

So good week because: I BOUGHT [2] COPIES OF DAVID'S NEW ALBUM!!!! It's sensational.

Bar-ba-sol= my new favorite rock song, holy sex on a stick.
Heroes= about his family, has my heart! Love that the whole band sings on the chorus
Declaration= lovelovelove this song
Come Back To Me= his voice is to die for on this song
Kiss on the Neck= about had me on my knees begging HAHA, yummy!
Permanent= my favorite. so very personal and I've cried every time I've listened to it
I love all the others too but as of right now, those are standing out [aka stuck in my head]

Also, I bought a ticket to see him perform at the Jingle Ball in Columbus on December 11!!! It's general admission/floor only so I'm hoping if I go early enough, I'll get front row :) I'm freaking stoked to see him again. That makes 4 times in 6 months...wow.

That's about all I can think of atm....GO BUCKEYES!!!!! But I have no doubts...we've won, what? The past SIX years? kthanks.

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I-O!